Summer is my favorite season by far. The warm weather, the pool, playing outside, ice cream, Jazz in June, the freedom from school.... Even though I like school and more importantly the amazing people at school, I guess I like not having to constantly think ahead to the next deadline.
Graduating from college hasn't fully hit me yet. I think it will in the fall when everyone either moves or goes back to school. I'm slightly afraid of what that will feel like, but hopefully it won't be too hard.
Summer, unfortunately, generates a bit of laziness in me and I forget that I do need to be thinking about the future and what I want to do with my life.... well not necessarily my WHOLE life but at least what to do in these next couple of years.
I'm not going to lie, I thought I would be married by now or at least headed in that direction. Perhaps because both my mom and sister got married around my age, or perhaps the Midwest in general tends to get married young, or perhaps it's the large amount of friends getting married around me. Although I've been overwhelmingly excited for all of my friends' engagements and weddings, I'm jealous. And it's especially hard in the summer when I don't have 1 million other things occupying my mind. I know I can't live life like that. Just waiting. What do I gain from that? I need to live my life for God! Serving Him with the talents He has given me. He's the only one that can truly satisfy me. I fall into the trap of thinking that getting married will solve everything and make my life better, but if I get married he will just be another human that falls short, just like me. Marriage isn't selfish, it's not about fulfilling my needs.
I also have to remember and be beyond thankful for my amazing friends and family that God has blessed me with, I'm no where near alone. "Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always." (Psalm 105:4) Then , and ONLY then, will I be completely satisfied.
Also here's an article my friend posted about marriage.
http://www.relevantmagazine.com/life/relationship/features/27749-you-never-marry-the-right-person
